Saturday, November 5, 2011
How we respond says a lot about our character.
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Sunday, August 28, 2011
Dear Nurturing Girl,
It is often said that a good way to treat others that we love is to imagine that it is our last day with them...or our last day alive. But what if we tried instead, to live as though it is our VERY FIRST DAY with them?
Try to live this day as though it is the first time you have ever seen your child, or the love of your life, or your parents...or your beautiful friends. Look at them from head to toe...see them for what they are and who they are...look around at all that they are doing, and who they have become......work hard to make sure they know exactly how you feel about them. Work hard to be someone that they might want to have in their life.
After time has passed...we so often forget to see things that would normally leave us in awe. Things that are beautiful and miraculous and a complete gift in our lives are all but overlooked because we see them day after day. TODAY decide that it is the first day of your life...and walk into your life to see all of the gifts that are there for you. See your first glass of water, your first sunrise, hear your first song, see those freckles on the face of that little boy you love for the first time....notice the way someone shows their love for you...like it’s the first time.
We work so hard to go go go. Let’s stop today and see what is here already...what we don’t have to go anywhere to see. Let’s try to start seeing things that would blow our minds and touch our hearts and bring us to tears if we were paying attention....or if it were the first time it ever happened...or the first time we ever met.
Life is so beautiful, so full, so miraculous.
Welcome to the first day of your life!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
What’s the one thing you’d change about yourself if you could?
(Yes, only one. Come on. You do not have 10 things that need to be different).
Mine is knowing when to shut up, or knowing when to not say something that I didn’t think much about before I said it.
Because sometimes when we say things, they end up meaning that much more to the person who heard them.
And then they’re really hard to take back. And when I didn’t mean what I said in the way it was received in the first place, well, then, it always make me think: a. Why are you so honest? and b. Why don’t you think before you speak?
And then there’s nothing I can do.
I know I said only one, but the second thing I would change is how much I worry about things. Little things become huge if left to ruminate in my mind, and then, yes, I slowly drive myself insane…
And the third thing I would change is how much I care about the little things.
This life is tough sometimes, right?
I know. Chill out. Only worry about what I can control. Live in the moment. Yada yada. I know.
Tell me I’m not alone. Your less-than-desirable trait, please?
This post originally appeared on momaha.com.
Friday, August 19, 2011
(Today's Brave Girls Club Daily Truth is too perfect not to share):
Dear Gorgeous Girl,
Think hard, lovely you, about something that worried you 5 years ago...something that worried you day and night and night and day.....something that you weren’t quite sure that you could ever make it through, and that certainly you did not feel you had the tools to make it through at that time.
Yet, here you are, a brave soul...having made it 5 years down the path of your life, and somehow it all worked out...somehow you made it. It might even be so that you have stopped thinking about whatever that worry was until this very moment....because it seems so many lifetimes ago. You may even be giggling thinking about all of the time and energy that you spend worrying about that problem, because in hind sight, it seems so small now.
This is the way it is, dear friend. We waste so much time worrying. We worry and we worry and we worry.....yet, we have made it to today somehow. Can we give life more than that? Can we just try to TRUST that things will be ok, because they always have been...because here we are today, breathing in and out....perfect proof that we will be ok tomorrow too.
Let’s not waste any more time worrying. It IS going to work out...it is going to work out beautifully when all is said and done. It may be longer than we had hoped, and it mayb be in a different way than what we thought was best...but along the way there will be too many gifts of knowledge, learning and miracles to count that will get us through....it’s just the way things work.
Today is a great day to decide that enough is enough...no more worrying.
Life is a beautiful ride. Let’s enjoy it.
You are loved beyond measure.
(Entire post copyright Brave Girls Club - if you haven't checked them out yet, do so!)
Friday, August 12, 2011
If you could go back and change your mind, choose a different path, would you?
Do you ever think about that?
I know none of us would trade our children — not for anything, not for millions of dollars or a home on the beach or a perfect-all-the-time husband. Of course, not.
But what if we could go back to that boy we dated in high school and choose … not to date him. Choose to instead have more girlfriends or spend more Friday nights getting to know our parents … or getting to know ourselves. Reading more books, watching more classic films, starting a scrapbooking club or a bible study group or … anything else.
What if we could go back to that moment in college where we had to bite the bullet and pick a major? Would you still choose journalism? Or would you go that other route you’ve always wondered about, you know, that pre-med route?
What if your parents hadn’t split up? What if you’d stayed with your dad instead? Would you have the same friends, the same kids? Would you have married the same guy? (The uncomfortable answer to these questions is no.)
But we all take the life path we do for a reason. Everything happens for a reason. People come into our lives at the exact time they’re meant to, and then later, some of them leave. We make the choices we do for a reason. We deal with the fall-out from some of those choices because we have to. But every day we get a new day. This world keeps turning, no matter what we do.
I think our challenge – my challenge, at least – is believing this is all how it’s meant to turn out and being patient with the changes, with the bends in the road, without knowing the final destination.
This post originally appeared at momaha.com.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Do you guys know about the Brave Girls Club?
If not, go there. Sign up for the daily e-mails. It's not spam.
Here was the daily truth today:
"One of the paradoxes of life is that sometimes the very best decisions have the most difficult consequences. And sometimes what is best is not what we want most. And sometimes when we want to feel peace, we have to do something that feels painful first. Sometimes, we have to do such hard things, and there's absolutely no other way.
"You can do it, though ... you know what is the right thing to do.. you know for sure in your gut and deep in your heart and a million signs have led you to what you are supposed to do. It still feels so scary, so difficult and so impossible, even for a very brave girl.
"Just know that most of the best things in life come after making the most difficult choices and doing the hardest things and taking the biggest risks.
"You really can do this ... and miracles are going to happen when you do."
My goodness, they are tiny.
You forget. Right? Isn’t it crazy how we forget?
My boss, aka mom2lulu, had her third baby girl last week and she brought the new one into work the other day.
She even said to me, “You’re not much of a baby person, right?”
I wasn’t sure how to answer that, if I was or wasn’t. I like babies very much when they’re not crying non-stop for seemingly no reason. Yes, at every other time, I like them lots. When they’re crying those tiny cries, well, yes, I’d prefer an 18-month-old.
At any rate, I liked her baby a lot. She was so delicate, just a small bundle of coziness. Her skin was perfect, her brown hair was fluffy, she opened her baby eyes and just looked around the room - at the lights on the ceiling and all the strange faces peering at her.
I held her briefly – until she started to cry. And then Mom took her and all was well in her tiny world again.
It made me want one.
Which is out of the question for all sorts of reasons.
But still, my goodness, babies are sweet.
Do you ever get baby fever when you see a newborn?
This post originally appeared on momaha.com, the World-Herald's website for moms. (It's Veronica's full-time job.)
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
I'm so excited for him. He wiggled it out himself tonight, while he lay in bed. He opened the door around 9:15 and came to find me in the living room.
"Mom," he said, "I lost my tooth." And then he looked down into his hand and showed me the tiny tooth.
He had blood on his fingers and blood in his mouth, but he was smiling.
I feel like this is a milestone. And I'm actually mourning - slightly - the loss of that tooth that was in his mouth for so many years. That tooth that we've brushed and brushed and brushed. That tooth that helped him eat and helped him talk. That tooth that was a piece of my first baby.
Now, it sits in a plastic baggie under my baby's pillow.
(He did write a note to the Tooth Fairy, though, requesting to keep his tooth! That's my boy!)
Who knew my son losing his first tooth could be so exciting!? (And, yes, that is a permanent tooth already coming in behind).
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Here are some of the girls going through the tunnels:
I said to Rye afterward, "Wouldn't it be fun if we could have birthday parties every month?"
He said, "Yeah, but then I'd get old really fast."
So much wisdom from my nearly 6-year-old!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Maybe at least it would make a good story, I told my son.
I was hoping.
Not that this story is awful by any means. More … irritating, I guess, than anything else. But also kind of funny.
My son, who turns 6 in May, takes gymnastics twice a week. Mondays and Thursdays at 5:30. This week, though, his mom is running a St. Patrick’s Day 5K on Thursday, so we sought out a make-up gymnastics class for him last night.
We arrived, true to form, about a minute late. He ran in, while I parked the car. I gave him clear instructions to look for his teacher and head straight in to join the group.
When my 22-month-old daughter and I made it in, I immediately walked to the window to make sure my son had found his class.
Just about right away, I knew something was wrong. For one, he was almost a foot taller than the other boys. Second, he also seemed to be joining the group mid-class. They were on the bars already. Normally, they’d be running laps for a warm-up.
I asked at the front desk. Yes, the class my son should be joining starts at 6:30, not 5:30. I checked my phone for the time: 5:36 p.m.
Ugh. Lesson: Always double check what you think you know.
I gathered my children and headed for the car. Both said, “Where are we going? What are we doing?”
The truth: I hadn’t a clue. But I knew we weren’t staying at gymnastics for the next 54 minutes, just waiting. We live far enough away that it didn’t make sense to go home either.
We hadn’t eaten yet and the kids had already requested pancakes for dinner, so I decided we’d go to the nearby breakfast restaurant. Perfect. Dinner taken care of and time wasted!
Then I saw my son’s feet. I hadn’t made him wear shoes. He takes them off as soon as he gets to gymnastics anyway, why bother with tying them? No shirt, no shoes, no service. Awesome.
So we drove. We drove until Mommy saw a thrift store. We went in, my son barefoot. I told myself the fact that my son didn’t have shoes on and we were going in to shop at a thrift store didn’t mean anything about my financial means, despite appearances to the contrary.
Goldmine: Above a rack of clothes, I saw a pair of kids’ sneakers. They were white and royal blue and off-brand.
I’m also pretty sure they were girls’ shoes.
But they fit. So we bought them.
And then we ate a speed dinner of pancakes at the nearby restaurant. Because by the time we got there, I had to ask the waiter to please rush our order.
Finally, we showed up to gymnastics – again – a minute late.
This post originally appeared on momaha.com.
Monday, March 14, 2011
They usually start in the morning. I burn the waffles. I spill the sippy cup as I'm pouring the juice. I can't find one of my daughter's shoes.
My son doesn't like the choices of pants in his drawer. He wants the pair of pants he wore two days ago and can't understand why they're not clean. It's not like he wore them yesterday.
My daughter trips on her blankie or an errant toy (book, movie, shirt, fill in the blank really) that's been left where it shouldn't be.
I wake up with intentions to shower but then run out of time. I can't find my toothbrush - it's probably hiding out with my daughter's shoe.
We leave the house late. My son can't find his hat. Or his gloves. Or his library book. My daughter cries for her sunglasses to be on her face right that second, MAMA!! Even though it's cloudy.
I forget my lunch that I actually took time to make on the kitchen counter. Again.
We hit every red light. There's no easy place to park to simply drop my son off at school.
I try to fight the urge to swing by Starbucks. I don't have time, I should save the money. I swing by anyway. And the drive-through is eight cars deep.
I keep on driving, wondering what's next...
These sorts of days.
Anyone with me?
This post originally appeared on momaha.com.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
A year later, Paige is talking better than most 21-month-olds, has transitioned well to a toddler bed and is just overall a joy to be around.
Of course, we love all our children with all our hearts, but she is extra special (so is her brother!).
Here she is in her new princess toddler bed, which a week later she is actually sleeping in.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Today was the second snow day. My kindergartner was out of school again, I still felt sick and my toddler was still as rambunctious as ever.
No one cared that Mommy still had to work, even if school was called off, even if she felt sick.
No one cared that we hadn't been out of the house since Saturday. (Today is Wednesday, mind you).
No one cared that I was out of coffee.
Snow days would be a lot more fun if a. we could get of the house and if b. I also got the day off from work. Think how much fun snow days would be in the summer?! Swimming, riding bikes, trips to the park!
Snow days in winter, especially on days when the driveway isn't shoveled and the wind chill is below zero, are no fun. You can't even really go sledding.
The day turned out just fine actually. And, yes, I'm exaggerating the awfulness above. I took the kids to daycare, I went to the doctor (I have a sinus infection. Bring on the antibiotics!) and made a quick stop at the gym before returning home to work, in peace and quiet. I got a lot done.
And now I'm going to get my babies, with the renewed sense of how much I love them that only a small break from them can bring.
And tonight after they're in bed?
A glass of wine and an Internet search for cheap tickets to Cancun.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I never stopped rocking her to sleep. And now she's 20 months old and used to the cuddling. So to get out of it, I know what has to happen. Laying her down, kissing her goodnight and then putting up with the crying.
Doesn't sound fun.
I made another mistake a few weeks ago, though. I added a step to falling asleep. Nice work, Mommy.
It was right before Christmas and my beautiful daughter wouldn't go to sleep.
She was overtired, and she was crying. I turned off the lights and we sat down to rock like every other night, but this night she wouldn't stop crying.
I tried hushing her, rocking faster, covering her up with a blanket but nothing worked. Really, she just needed to fall asleep.
I tried singing. "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" got a, "No, Mama!" "Row, Row, Row Your Boat" got a similar response, as did the ABCs.
On a last-ditch whim, I tried "Jingle Bells."
It worked. Hallelujah, the child stopped crying! And within minutes, she fell asleep.
Relieved and a little proud of myself, I sneaked out of the room, my baby resting soundly. "Jingle Bells," I thought. Who knew?
Well, about four weeks later, I want to chuck the lyrics to "Jingle Bells" right out of my brain. Know why? Because I've had to sing it EVERY bedtime and nap-time since. Every single one. And if I stop after five or six rounds because, I don't know, I'm TIRED, I get, "Mooore Jingle Bells, Mama. MOOORE Jingle Bells" in a sort of whiny little girl voice.
So then I sing more. I've started whispering it and only singing the chorus, in the honest hope that she'll get bored and ask me to stop.
No such luck. Yet. At least she falls asleep ...
Until I decide to stop rocking and singing all together. Oh, boy.
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